“If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world it would love you as it’s own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world . That is why the world hates you.” ~ John 15:18-19
I felt like I was being avoided by some loved ones and it was weighing my heart down. I don’t know about you, but I’m one of those people that roll things over and over and over again, in my head. Oh so gently the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart. “It’s not you, its ME!”
Wow How awesome and how true. Its Who I represented that people shyd away from, and Who I represent is Christ. (Really what am I talking about or doing if it doesn’t have anything to do with Jesus… and trust me; it ALL does) If I represented myself (if I’m not an A-HOLE) Im sure the world would love me, there was a time it did! Oh, how they loved when I was a tomb and at my lowest. Now I’m rolling that over and over, wagging my finger and thinking of myself more than I ought. Pshh, so instead of allowing my mind to devour itself and my self-image, God spoke gently bringing my focus back to Him and gracefully encouraging me. Yeah it hurt… but sometimes we just need to let that go. Death to Self. That especially goes for pride.
“No one can serve two masters. Ether he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other.” Matthew 6:24
Imagine me slowly raising my hand as I openly confess before you, I can be a people pleaser. Yes, it’s a wonderful attribute but there are always two sides to a coin. Through my desires to please man, the table is set for hospitality; yet right now, I still need to find a balance. It’s easy for me to cross the line from serving to worshipping. Putting man in God’s place and holding their thoughts, titles, wants and opinions higher than God’s truth is worship! That shouldn’t be.
What did I imagine death to self would feel like? Well its not like the thought of suicide quick and painless, to be an end to all things. No, this dying to self seems like an everyday thing. In the meantime I nestle in the thought, “How much more glorious will Life received be?”. Consider the cost, but in the mean time. Pray <3
Thank you for this time that you ministered to our heart. Lord forgive me when I become selfish and try to place myself or even others before You. Lord, help me to seek Your face and focus on You, Jesus. Rooted and preserved by Your love. Please keep us near In Jesus name we pray
And all God’s people said AMEN <3
“Everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or fathers or mothers or children or fields for my sake will inherit eternal life” Matthew 19:29
A LITTLE about the Author, Kristina
Thankful for who I AM. I am a woman after God's heart. A wife. A mother of 4 beautiful children. and a lover of all things good and true.. In that order. How do you do?